Absolutely love this! I too am in the same position . Now that I’m back on a “Pre”prep I feel better. But my competition was right before thanksgiving and Christmas (alcohol and food and more food and some cookies) all I thought was OMG I’m starting prep in the spring better munch down. I didn’t stop lifting but there was no calorie deficit. Some may call this “bulking” and that’s been my excuse. But in all honesty just like Cassey, I just Lost Self control, ate to no end, and every time I had a treat I would think I never have these I can eat it (although itd be quite frequent and till I was stuffed ) Another note on this topic: I who have had disordered eating since 6th grade (I’m 22 now) really knows what it feels like to even hear a comment from you mother such as “those jeans look tighter today.. Etc.” You don’t know what a person has dealt with in their life even your best friends. Only VERY few people know about my eating disorders , those are the people who would never say comments like that . But if you don’t know me (or people who have suffered) and say a comment about weight.. Even as a joke.. It still has an impact on their self esteem/mind. I began bodybuilding a little over a year ago. I started after a very stressful relationship that I finally cut off. When I broke up with him I was depressed .. I had no one even if the person I previously had was awful. I had a goal.. How to make myself happy. It finally came to me when I bought a muscle and fitness hers and thought “DAMN!” I want that. My new goal. Stop striving for skinny start becoming strong . Getting stronger in the gym had given me the most confidence I have ever had. I still have bad days and people’s words still affect me. And although i have some disordered habits, emotional i still eat A LOT. Why? Because I know I need food to Get stronger. I need protein, carbs , fats. I am not on a Pre prep meal plan. Many people think I’m insane. And it’s unhealthy. But I promise you. It’s not. I eat 6 meals and lift four days a week and cardio 5 days a week. I’ve only been on this plan for a few days and its not very restricted. But Its helping me get back on track and cut away from disordered eating. It’s helping me find things to do instead of food haunting my mind right after I eat even when I’m full. Point is: saying comments to a female OR male about weight or in relation to that it may affect that person even if you don’t mean anything negative . Be kind (: blogilates:

Hey POPsters,

Have you ever been in a situation where you walk into a family party and a female relative walks up to you and says, “Oh you look fat!” or “Looks like you gained some weight!” (If you are from an Asian family, I know you know what I mean.)

Like, what are you supposed to say? Is…

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